June 2nd, Hey I'm still alive...I think

Alive in the way that  I'm breathing and performing task's to keep myself alive.
I think that's the only way I could possibly be alive because right now I feel dead, I haven't slept in what feels like forever, and I've blacked out a lot recently as well.

Going to the hospital next Friday to get blood work done, I don't think it's because of a sickness known to medicine, no its him.

It's him the one known as many names, Slender man, Tall man, der grobmann, Slendy.
Whatever you wanna call him, I could care less personally I call him Slenderman but that's just me.

I blacked out on a bench up near a park in my town for about 5 minutes yesterday well on my walk.
that one was peaceful, I actually didn't dream, didn't wake up scared, summer is coming I'm always happy at this time.

During summer I sleep outside a lot, because it's warmer. I wonder because of all that's happened will I do it this year too? Last night I never slept again not unusual you think after 4-5 day's I'd be getting use to it I'm not if anything it's only affecting my head more and more.

I'm coming to the point where I can't think or speak or move or function.
that is unhealthy, perhaps I'm dieing...
I don't want to die, I want to rest, to live..I don't want to be normal though I look at humans now with a different view.

Humans just live, I don't think we really seem to have a reason we just kinda go with whatever is thrown our way.
Me? I now have reason..reason for everything..although I know WHAT it is & I know is it is THERE.

I Will Help in any way
I Will Protect all I can who are running and fighting.
To the best of my ability I will help those fighting against Slenderman.
Those who serve him, be careful.

As long as I can remember this I will keep living, Fighting my own battle
Hey Slenderman, proxies anyone on HIS side.
If you think you've won the battle
you've only lost your mind.

-I_L