Thursday, 29 March 2012

Welcome, to the world in which I live.

Con and I had a run in with Mr. tall dark and friendly, along with a new toy he must have handpicked and she called herself Agony.

Damn the girl anyways, Agony I mean, She was a copy of myself it seemed, aside from our eye colour difference and the shades of pale she coated herself in. Fuck Agony, Fuck her anyway, little copycat, how the hell did she know my name? How the hell does she know Con?

I asked my older friend if she knew anything about the unoriginal proxy that we encountered, Con replied with this:

“Nothing…I have never met her…sorry if I’m not of much help”

“Not of being helpful…it’s of understanding this proxy, I think we can call her a proxy, seems to have something for us…or maybe its just you”

“Thanks…” she replied looking out the window of the bus, I chuckled at her attempt at sarcasm it was cute to say the least.

The next issue is, my disobedience, it seems I am not as tied into Father as I use to be, we had been so close, now since Mystery had removed me from my original body I seem to work on my own accord…

And with this Agony walking around it seems I was replaceable as well, it makes me wonder Shady will you replace me also?

Not that I plan to return to you, ever… besides you do have better things to do rather than search for a girl in your trust, maybe I shall call you up, tell you how I am, do you miss my voice?

Were on a bus, heading somewhere near Canada, I feel this will be a long ride but there happens to be someone, a few someones, on here has internet. I can’t remember how long the bus ride was, but we arrived in another town.
Con got us a room, it had one bed in which she curled up on and was asleep almost instantly, myself on the other hand decided to call my aunt up.


I cleared my throat softly before answering her I looked over to Con, just to make sure she was sleeping. “Shady it’s me….” I cleared my throat again before continuing, “You remember me…yes?”.

I heard her sigh; there was a split second before she responded. “Lullaby” I looked at the chipping wall paper and picked at it slightly. “I visit your mother’s, my friend’s grave every morning. My memory of you is as fresh as it was when you were here”

“Good..very good…” I said leaning down I rested my hands in front of me, I adjusted the phone so it was nestled on my shoulder and ear. “If you’ve been keeping up I’ve found someone…I’m wondering just how hard your searching for me Shady, considering the fact I’m in your care and all” I giggled lightly.

“Found your companions car” There was a pause; it seems she was adjusting something. “Your sloppy, now did you call here to remind me of what I already know? Or is there a point here, child?”

 I breathed heavily as I spoke again. “I hope you have a passport dear” I said empty again. “Con knows what I have done, I called to let you know, you won’t get me even if you track me down and come running after me” I sat upright and closed my eyes. “Everyone left you, your little 'family' it don't exist, hell your little 'friend' who you call my mother didn't even want to be around anymore, see she went and died on you" this time I let out a darker laugh.

"It's cute how your voice has matured yet you haven't in the least. Still saying ignorant shit as if you were some toddler." Shady laughed, her laugh mimicking being just as dark. "Is that supposed to hurt me, Lullaby? It doesn't even sting. You're a little late to the party." She chuckled further before letting out a sigh, her voice lacking given a fuck. "I don't need to run to find you when you pull stupid shit like this, girl. Joshua is tracking my calls, consider your location found." Shady said, her voice crossing between a growl and a chuckle.

I smiled, so this was my amazing aunty? The one I looked up to? Cute. "And you Shady think I am worried?" I cracked my neck. "I wanted to see if you cared...considering the fact I murdered someone so close to you, she considered you her sister, I didn’t mention how she was begging for you to save her yet... and you get so defensive, why would you care lady?" I hummed lightly. "Not like you use to, not when my mother and I met you, not like the day at the park, Desha misses her bed..." my voice deepened again. "I'll probably call again, once we get near Canada, until then Shady..." I let my voice droned out into a whisper, "Stay safe".

"Yes, call back when you grow up a bit, little girl. And realize all your accusations are so selfishly placed. It's not all about you, nor is it me." I clutched my hand into a fist as I heard this “You're the one that needs to stay safe, dove. Auntie will be there in due time." Without even waiting for my good-bye she hung up.
I listened to the beeping for about a minute; I wasn’t scared, nor intimated by her.

Just wondering now, it’s been almost three hours and I still didn’t sleep.

“Con…” I shook her awake and she looked at me tired.

“Sup?” she asked rubbing her eyes.

“We have to head off now…” I replied and she nodded.

Thursday, 8 March 2012

I haven’t posted in awhile....

And I have a good reason why, YOU try walking in the woods and YOU try finding a good internet connection.

Anyways, I met a girl, after I left our haven....Shady do you miss me? *giggle*.

Her name is Con.

And she’s very pretty, no really, I saw her in the ally and she was in the light first, she caught my eye.

She was tall, and had very pretty skin, not even the kind I wanted to drag my knife into. She also had crystal like eyes; they memorized me and drew me in created a fake world that nothing mattered in.

Beautiful, she had blond shoulder length hair, the kind that naturally shines a brilliant gold no matter what light it was under.

She was dressed in light blue jeans and army boots, she was wearing a white jacket the kind you could see miles away even in a dark night, it had buckles along the waist on and the sleeves. Under the half zipped up coat was a plain black tee, she wore not a thing abnormal she was just...different.

And I told her we had to go on an adventure together.

Anyways she took about 10 minutes to get packed up and we stole her mother’s silver car, drove for miles, as far as whatever was left in the tank would get us.

"Where are you from?" she asked, the first words in almost 40 minutes of radio static and car tires gliding along the black pavement.

"I lived just a few minutes from where you found me" I told her, "I lived with my mother, my aunty and a few strangers i never got to know that well...."

"Why did you leave?" her voice was soft, she seemed like a calm person, but it was those people you should watch out for they tend to be the ones who will hurt you.

"I had to, something happened, I wanted an adventure"

She was quiet again, just focusing on the road ahead of us.

That was a few days ago, we ditched the car a ways back, we ran out of gas quickly, Con decided to drive it into a ditch, she had mommy issues too I guess.

She walked out unharmed and tore her backpack from the backseat.

"Let’s go...." She had already walked past me and into the woods, I hesitated but followed, I don’t want to tell her about the dangers of the woods yet.

Not much has happened; we wondered the woods following a compass and a map, like to children exploring the unknown.

Somehow we got an open connection, in the woods, a connection....weird.
That is where I sat down and wrote this up.

Shady, I don’t know if you give a fuck, but I’m alive, now I challenge you, you said you would find me....well bitch...bring it...find me.

I dare you.