dreaming of a little girl

First off, Apologies
you shouldn't have heard me go on and on about my life's sob story, non the less hear THAT much swearing.

Second, my thoughts and Ideas.
Soon I'll be outta here, although i have no one to really turn to.
I know there are a lot of runners, but i'd have a better chance if I was in the US i'm so isolated around here.
that's what makes this all so incredibly difficult for mii.
Damn, damn, damn, damn.

Thirdly, I tip my hat to my followers who are putting up with my BS.
life's been so hard for mii, Jessica's death, Mr.Slenderman, a few proxies and my stupid so called friends.

Although I've been writing a detailed plan, for running, need a plan in case of emergencies.
If I can get to the US I will have more of a chance of finding others who are running, its GETTING to the US that the problem starts.

forgive me, for ranting about my bad day.
I'm so stressed.
Plus Ive been getting weirder and weirder cryptic messages, possibly from proxies.

'Hold onto your doll, hold onto it tight, that doll is your heart, hold it with your might, you are the last one, the last one on the list, even though we've called you crazy, your just a little girl who's smile makes us cringe. HE misses you Melissa.'

'Last one?', 'list?', 'We've?' 'HE?' who are these people? what the heck do they want? what list? what do they mean last one? and who is HE? and how do they know my name?

I mean I keep dreaming of a little girl, I've never seen her face and I've only seen her in the distance, but I keep seeing her.
Oh dear, this is turning into a nightmare.
wake me up?
tell mii that I'm dreaming?
I need a drink.